May 2013
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“Jobs, jobs, jobs! They’re everywhere. The problem with all this job-creation is...”
– Matt Bors (via azspot) Spot on, A-FUCKING-MEN.
May 11th
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Balderdash and Whimsy: raemanzu:... →
raemanzu: riker-wears-a-skant: punkrocklibrarian: lost-plots-of-tng: data realizes that his gender has been arbitrarily assigned to him, and begins experimenting with other gender roles from other planets. !!! DATA DOES A MONTH-LONG INTENSIVE EXPERIMENT… ^^ Someone write this. Or draw in comic form, or something. I would if I could draw.
May 11th
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“Sometimes I think I owe people more than I can possibly repay. Sometimes those...”
– More wisdom of LSG.
May 5th
McDonald’s Theory — What I Learned Building… →
Anne Lamott advocates “shitty first drafts,” Nike tells us to “Just Do It,” and I recommend McDonald’s just to get people so grossed out they come up with a better idea. It’s all the same thing. Lammott, Nike, and McDonald’s Theory are all saying that the first step isn’t as hard as we make it out to be. Once I got an email from Steve Jobs, and it was just one word: “Go!” Exactly. Dive in. Do....
May 2nd
March 2013
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Last night's dream
I dreamt that I met you on a stormy sea and I had little to say  Past the lump in my throat Past the ache in my heart My cousin warned me that the game I was playing was vulnerable to hackers I said I knew And I’ve taken all the precautions I can take and they may have taken my phone  but they cannot take my heart Only I can give it away Wisely or not. [Thanks, brain. /semiscarcastic]
Mar 26th
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Recovery
Today I wore some socks that B gave me without wanting to jump off a bridge every time I looked down at them, so that's progress. I think.
Unless I should have just purged them in the great getting-rid-of-reminders, but that was mostly for things that were involved in the gaslighting, like the expensive pants I was encouraged to buy that looked so good because I stopped really eating and lost 20 lbs. due to stress. Like dressing right would somehow atone for my lateness and all the other reasons that I was a horrble person. More fool me for being desperate enough to try it.
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Expectation: I feel a little bit better today!
Expectation: I feel a little bit better today!
Expectation: I feel a little bit better today!
Expectation: Hey, I think I feel pretty good!
Expectation: I guess that means I'm normal now! Time to go live a normal life!
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Reality: I feel terrible.
Reality: I still feel terrible.
Reality: Is this seriously "recovery?" This sucks.
Reality: I don't want to be thinking about all of this shit, this is exhausting.
Reality: I guess today's not so bad.
Reality: Today is bad again.
Reality: Today is bad, but I think I'm starting to understand why.
Reality: Wow, how long has it been since I cleaned my room?
Reality: Cleaning my room didn't make me feel any better, but hey, room's clean.
Reality: Whoa, okay, I need a shower. And maybe a haircut? Definitely a haircut.
Reality: Everything sucks.
Reality: Okay, except you.
Reality: And you too, I didn't mean that you sucked.
Reality: And that thing that I like is pretty cool.
Reality: What was I talking about?
Reality: Wow, it turns out that was totally my fault?
Reality: I was the jackass.
Reality: Holy shit, I am such a jackass.
Reality: Everybody must hate me.
Reality: EVERYBODY HATES ME.
Reality: Okay, how could everybody hate me? I mean, even if I'm a jackass, the Law of Averages dictates that SOMEBODY out there would probably like me anyway.
Reality: Why would everybody hate me anyway, I'm awesome.
Reality: ...I'm not that awesome.
Reality: Sometimes I'm pretty awesome, though.
Reality: OH MY GOD I HATE MYSELF
Reality: WHAT IS THIS, I'M RIGHT BACK WHERE I STARTED
Reality: EVERYTHING SUCKS, THE WORLD SUCKS, I SUCK, NOBODY WILL EVER LOVE ME AND I WILL DIE UNMOURNED AND ALONE
Reality: ...What the hell was that about?
Reality: Anyway, gonna get stuff done.
Reality: Gonna get stuff done
Reality: Getting stuff done
Reality: WHY DO I FAIL AT EVERYTHING
Reality: WALLOWING
Reality: WALLOWING SOME MORE
Reality: Okay NO MORE WALLOWING, we've talked about this, we're not doing this right now.
Reality: ...I can't believe that worked.
Reality: Huh.
Reality: So hang on, is this it?
Reality: I mean, is this recovery? Am I doing this right? Is it going to be over soon?
Reality: I just want to be normal.
Reality: I am such a ridiculous trainwreck of a human being. How do I even exist? Why do I get to have friends? Why do you people talk to me? There's so much about myself that I really don't like, and there's probably even more stuff that I don't even know about that isn't too hot, either. And I'm working on it, but man, it's hard.
Reality: ...I just realized that everything I just said is normal.
Reality: Oh my God, am I already normal?
Reality: I'M ALREADY NORMAL. THIS IS NORMAL.
Reality: It's...not exactly everything I was hoping for, to tell you the truth.
Reality: ...Oh well.
Reality: Today was okay.
Reality: Maybe tomorrow will be better.
Mar 16th
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January 2013
5 posts
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Jan 21st
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Tomato genetics!
In 2010, it appears that one of my varieties of heirloom, open-pollinating tomato plant pollinated another. This doesn’t happen often as tomatoes tend to self-pollinate, keeping their genetics stable. In Spring 2011, two random crosses of the 2010 plants sprouted in my garden bed with no help from me. These are the F1 hybrids. One of them didn’t survive transplant, but the other did,...
Jan 16th
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“All they [Hobby Lobby] are asking for is a narrow exemption from the law that...”
– Hobby Lobby: The First Martyr Under Obamacare? Following that same argument, Hobby Lobby is arguing that I should be exempt from paying any federal taxes to be used by the Defense Department or CIA killing of the innocent in drone attacks, or by the Justice Department or my state to lock up brown...
Jan 11th
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Jan 9th
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Jan 7th
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November 2012
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This is why I like the idea of Callahan's Place.
lordsteeb: imagine being an old-timey gangster but instead of having people murdered you had them loved. that’s pretty much my dream job now that i think about it. all sittin in bars in a pinstriped suit, being all “hey tony. see that guy over there? go take care of him, if you know what i mean.” and then tony goes and gives him a hug
Nov 26th
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August 2012
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Bold Black & Bitchy: khaleesi: libertarians who... →
khaleesi: libertarians who say not voting is the same as casting a vote because “none of these options are good enough” actually ANYONE who says that are you so blinded by your own self-absorption that you don’t realize the rights of a LOT of people are genuinely at stake, here? …
Aug 22nd
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I've been talking to the flowerpot again. →
It *should* be.
Aug 15th
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The answer to the question abuse victims keep...
Did I CAUSE the slip in to controlling and abusive insane behavior? Is it MY FAULT? Did I make [my abuser] like this? No. That wee voice is a lying shite bag. [The abuser] behaves this way because [the abuser] WANTS TO! You are not responsible for [abuser’s] actions in ANY way. What you did does not give [them] permission to behave like this.  [Abuser’s] behaviour is [their]...
Aug 6th
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Aug 6th
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Aug 6th
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July 2012
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“…God via Christianity, and religion in general, would not allow me to be...”
– Annalise Fonza, There is No Wipe-Out Story: An Ex-Pastor’s Journey to Atheism
Jul 31st
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Jul 31st
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Jul 31st
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The Horror Movie Theory of Abusive Relationships
From the comments at Captain Awkward, on this post: http://captainawkward.com/2012/01/09/question-169-my-dad-hit-me/#comment-6082 Marie January 9, 2012 at 1:51 pm Oh man, it really does feel that ridiculous when you look back on it. You watch one of those horror movies, and the sinister voice says, “LEAVE NOW” and the characters are like “What was that? I’m sure it was the cat. Everything’s...
Jul 19th
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Boundary issues and highly difficult people
Captain Awkward, a superb advice columnist, was introduced to me by @celeloriel. Entertaining and very educational, thanks! http://captainawkward.com/2012/05/14/247-marrying-into-a-family-with-awful-boundary-issues-or-secrets-of-dealing-with-highly-difficult-people/#more-3020 When Alice throws a tantrum, she wants you to inventory your behavior and wonder what you’ve done to upset her, and she...
Jul 18th
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A primer on how to recognize a toxic relationship →
I really want to just quote the whole thing here, but it’s long so I’ll pull out a few choice quotes. “But many controlling people aren’t obvious or extreme. Some relationships exist on the continuum between “abusive” and “great.” They’re codependent or toxic or they rely on what is called “ambient abuse”—not overt, visible forms of harm, but subtle ones that gradually take away...
Jul 18th
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Jul 6th
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On creepiness.
arletterocks: A word on “creepy”: I know it gets thrown around a lot without necessarily being explained, so I’ll take a crack at it. Read More
Jul 6th
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Jul 2nd
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June 2012
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http://www.rps.net/cgi-bin/stone/randpower.pl →
Random Superhero Generator! sharonopolis has developed a terrific proficiency at picking locks. She likewise has learned to change shape into a fly, however only in shadow. sharonopolis can block deafening sounds and deflect them toward a single combatant, but using this power draws a lot of attention. She can leap to far away galaxies and she rides a bewildering mech into battle. sharonopolis is...
Jun 17th
May 2012
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The Power of Tumblr. The Beauty of Strangers.
detroitsomething: My name is Ray Stoeser.  I am a high school teacher living and working in Detroit.  Below is a testament to the power of Tumblr and social networking.  Most importantly it is about how 554 complete strangers helped change the lives of my Detroit students. The Power of Tumblr.  The Beauty of Strangers. Read More
May 28th
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Anybody else have this experience? →
This is why I suck at parties. And networking.
May 22nd
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Garden organization suggestions →
I did a modified version of this with the planting dates by week on cards clipped onto the seed packets - especially helpful in March where something new goes in every week.
May 7th
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Two links about the end of American football
…due to head trauma causing C.T.E., chronic traumatic encephalopathy (a form of dementia) in all the players. Both links brought to my attention by John Gruber of daringfireball.net. http://www.newyorker.com/reporting/2009/10/19/091019fa_fact_gladwell?currentPage=all C.T.E. has many of the same manifestations as Alzheimer’s: it begins with behavioral and personality changes, followed by...
May 5th
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May 4th
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April 2012
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Lady, You Really Aren't 'Crazy' →
Nor is the correct response to decide that you can be saner. This is tricky, because trying to be saner when “being saner” means “behaving in a way one specific individual wants you to behave” is cuckoo for cocoa puffs ludicrous. It’s also really difficult. That’s not to say it can’t be done. It’s doable! But it’s going to require never expressing a single genuine emotion, sizing up every word...
Apr 24th
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Apr 10th
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Apr 7th
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Apr 5th
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Magical Deductions ⚡☂: ok lets see if that thing... →
magicaldeductions: ok lets see if that thing with glasses chicks suddenly becoming super weird feminine when they whip off their glasses works woop well that was anticlimatic wait wait WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON What that is dumb and does not happen. Look,…
Apr 5th
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1895 "Don't" list for women cyclists →
Amazing how some of these “don’t get above your station, woman!” ideas are still in effect. Don’t imagine everybody is looking at you. Don’t go out after dark without a male escort. Don’t let your golden hair be hanging down your back. Don’t discuss bloomers with every man you know. Don’t appear in public until you have learned to ride well.
Apr 1st
March 2012
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Amalie Noether: Female mathematical genius you've... →
Albert Einstein called her the most “significant” and “creative” female mathematician of all time…. She invented a theorem that united with magisterial concision two conceptual pillars of physics: symmetry in nature and the universal laws of conservation. 
Mar 31st
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Mar 30th
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Mar 29th
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People will try to connect a recent suspension... →
Mar 27th
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Acolyte: Dear all Bisexuals, Pansexuals, Asexuals,... →
My professor flat out said this morning that she does not “believe” in bisexuals. She proceeded to say that the only valid and real orientations are heterosexual, and homosexual,and nothing else exists. There is no in between,and if we believe we are anything but hetero or homo, we are just confused, and mislead. She also believes transgender people are just confused. So basically, to her,...
Mar 1st
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Acolyte: Dear all Bisexuals, Pansexuals, Asexuals,... →
My professor flat out said this morning that she does not “believe” in bisexuals. She proceeded to say that the only valid and real orientations are heterosexual, and homosexual,and nothing else exists. There is no in between,and if we believe we are anything but hetero or homo, we are just confused, and mislead. She also believes transgender people are just confused. So basically, to her,...
Mar 1st
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February 2012
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Feb 24th
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PETITION | Google: Don't Support Bigotry & White... →
WTF??!?! (Also… white supremacists are still on about the Jews? Really?) socialismartnature: Google is sponsoring a conference this week that features white supremacists, anti-gay activists, and one group classified by the Southern Poverty Law Center as a “White Nationalist hate group.” One panel at this week’s Conservative Political Action Conference in Washington, DC is called “The...
Feb 14th
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January 2012
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From Cracked: Growing up poor and the habits that... →
Some perspective on how I shouldn’t take my money-handling and eating habits for granted.
Jan 31st
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Ms. Blaspheming Bitch: Anonymous asked: nobody... →
diabolicalnerd: cognitivedissonance I care about my uterus and the uteruses (uteri?) of others. I also care about our rights to have a family (or not) when we so choose. This country is fucked in a lot of different ways. Why add to it by making safe, legal abortion no longer safe and…
Jan 27th
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Something -worse- than ACTA? Yes, it is: TTP. →
Oh great. But scroll down for the righteous f-bomb rant after the quotes and you might feel a bit better. maggieblueberry: brofisting: scootermoto: lazulila: digiportplz: cartoonfanatic: niklauz: stormofthunder: “From what I can tell it’s even LESS known than ACTA. I haven’t even been able to find any YouTube videos on it. Here are two lovely quotes I think you will find...
Jan 27th
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